Samira Squires: SamSqui: Samircle

I can’t handle this. Genius.

When did I become “attractive”?! When I was a young girl, I dreamt about attracting the opposite sex, that I was attracted to! And that never happened… but now! Like, whoa. I used to be short, fat, annoying… well, still annoying. But Jesus! Whatever I’m doing, I need to keep it up. I don’t want to be “Sister Samira” forever! But that’s officially my new nickname.  

Okay, so there’s like two guys I’m sorta interested. They seem perfect, but I still don’t know them. They don’t make my heart smile. I think I’m just attracted to their looks and success, plus they’re 25 & 26. 

And I actually bonded with a few GIRLS this weekend! I don’t know why I don’t have many girl friends, maybe because I don’t even try to bond with otha catty sithlords.

ALEX< MY grandma status is NO LONGER. 

I should be working on my online exam and my 4hour, 3 question (w/provided answers) GIS take home EXAM. 

But, I’m sad. I’m mad, I’m confused. I don’t like this feeling. I feel numb. Too numb to cry, too dizzy to do anything but write. 

I feel lost right now, maybe it’s just this time in my life. I’ve always had future plans, I’ve always wanted to do something important with my life, but now… I just don’t even know! I hate that the youth is honestly wasted on the young. I love and hate my job, but it’s getting to that point where I need to move on. If all works out, I should be out of school this fall and the latest, spring. I’ve changed my degree three times, I’ve taken three semesters part-time, I’ve had only three jobs, three real (pathetic) relationships, three lame roommates… what is this? Anyways, plans change and people change, for good or bad. I don’t even know what I want to do with my life anymore. I’ve stopped making plans, because something always intersects them. I’ve stopped caring about people. I’ve stopped trying. I’ve become apathetic! My current ”plan” well, dream, would be traveling after I graduate. I feel like that would be my only chance, besides after retirement, I would love to travel while I still have the energy. I must sound lost, well, in fact I am.

I don’t blog anymore, or make music anymore, but I’ve forgotten how relaxing this is… Taking these thoughts out of my head, instead of venting to one person, sounding like a pathetic SABITCHA, and just writing them all down.  I don’t care, I really don’t care, at all! I should care, but I’m able to toss feelings to the side and “try” to forget about them, then move on. I’ve done that, several times, with several friends. Oops. I’m crazy, aren’t I? Well, I’ve got my family…. WAIT, no I don’t. Where are my brothers, who are they. I once felt as if they were my best friends, now I could pass them by without gesture. Marcus is living with Antonia?! And deleted me off Facebook and twitter?! ahaha WTF? Michael is… finding himself, but not letting me in, even though I care more than he could EVER comprehend. Some only see the bad part of relationships, that’s what some people feed off of, instead of directing their attention on the good side of the relationship. While you bring up the bad, that bad still lingers, that bad is constantly being tossed in your head, unwillingly you can’t help but to eventually create a “bad” image for someones relationship/friendship. I don’t understand why someone has to spread my relationship with my own fucking brother to other people I don’t even know or care about. Why do they need this pointless information? So they can hate me? Cool. But I know you, you will never stop. That’s why I’ve wanted out. I don’t need your comments or sympathy. I want a friendship, but I don’t want your judgment or to hear secondhand that you’ve said “so and so” about me. I’m tired of that, I’m tired of you, I’m tired of me treating you like shit, because it’s always me! I’m always the bad guy and all of your friends hate me! So why are we still friends? 

So tonight, at approximately 11pm my car overheats and then the drama begun. I caused it, I know, but I was upset my brother wouldn’t help me! Seriously?! I was stranded down the road and night, needing help…. Imma pray.

I don’t understand guys. Like, how can you “talk” to me and say stupid flattering things, after knowing me for less then a month? Um, no. I don’t do that. 

I like you, but I don’t know you. You like me, but you don’t know me. 

So please understand when I turn down your offer, because I would never travel an hour away, ALONE, to hangout with a guy… I don’t even know. I would also never spend the night with someone I didn’t know. I have standards, or at least I try to.

Just saying, don’t cry me a river if I bail. 

Did she get more work done?

(Source: photojojo)

Become best friends with someone. 

Then they fall in love with someone close, aka do sexual shit together.

Then try to cover it up.

Then I find out. Get upset.

Fight. 

Pause.

Regroup and accept their new love interest. 

Get the fuck over it. 

engelfurimmer:

toolesbiantofunction:

lez-have-ya:

canyousaycunt:

boodlicious:

infinityonhyrule:

OH MY GOD WHAT DID I JUST WATCH

WHAT THE FUCK

That was so freaking awesome oh my god more more give me more!

This is amazing. 

Fucking hell. I am terrified O_o

LMFAO not lesbian but omg I died laughing. 

my face O.O omggggh

dafaq did i just watch?

AHAHAHAHAHAHA